Do people who never cared remember all the great times? Do they ever think of those they hurt?
i feel like i should be living under a bridge somewhere, somewhere nobody will notice me, notice my sadness, my watery blue eyes, the tears that stain my cheeks or notice my hollowness.
i feel empty inside.
The wold has stopped spinning. Everything is frozen in time, my heart, my thoughts are frozen on the one thought.
Why?
Why am i not like all the other people? Why do i put so much of myself into a friendship? Why did i trust some other human that is incapable of honesty? Why do i give my all to a few people and those people leave me?
i am nothing.
possibly more to come…
You have a huge family that cares about you and always have as you’ve traveled all over the place. And you are truly blessed to have Nick and his family give you a home. Many people have no family and no place to go…. and really are living under the bridges.
I’m sorry that people have hurt you, Ocean. I think there are a lot more people who care about you than you realize. That family you are staying with is a great example. They sound like wonderful people (and probably very good-looking). Don’t read into things – I’m sure they love having you around, and consider you part of the family.