Day 9: “I is for “Invisible.” Have you ever felt invisible?”
I always feel invisible.
As a child, I had to become invisible so I would not receive as much unwanted attention from my mother’s first husband. When people notice you, you are put into danger of their anger and violent tendencies.
I am invisible when I have a great idea. People do not want to hear my ideas until they hear it from someone else. I am invisible when it happens.
I am invisible when it comes to being loved. I am not seen as someone who needs love. Today, I heard the words “love you” from a small child. I did not know what to say. I never use the l-word. It is a dirty word to me. But I think that topic is coming up soon. These alphabets are killing me.
I try to become seen from time to time, but it never works out right. It is better when I stay invisible. I feel that if I were to disappear one day that nobody would notice for a long time.
I am invisible in a way that nobody knows me. I am invisible to everyone I have ever known. I keep most of myself hidden from the world. There are many invisible pieces of me. I rarely show those pieces to myself.
I am invisible to myself.
Excerpt From: Scott Green. “397 Journal Writing Prompts & Ideas.” Apple Books.