Day 21: “V is for “Voice”. What’s something that you’ve always wanted to tell someone?”
Shut the fuck up! I have this weird thing in my head that happens when people are talking to me that makes me want to scream that out to people. I am not sure why it happens, but it does. Sometimes I also see myself just walking away. I turn around while someone is speaking to me and I just walk away.
Fortunately, I know somewhere deep inside that is something that I am not supposed to do. It would be considered rude or something. My head does not care. It does what it wants to do. I have no control over it.
There are times that my tongue does say things that people think I should not say, but that happens because my head is in control of my body at that moment. I am not listening to what I am saying. My head is talking to my inner self. Two things are happening at the same time and I cannot always pay 100% to someone else.
There are many other things I wish I could say, but I only say to them to God and myself. I wish I could say “I love you. I honestly love you.” to actually human people. Sometimes I want to say, “I hate you”; I do not say hate in regards to people. I do dislike some people, very strongly dislike. I would like to say to some people that they are not as good as they think they are or act in front of others. Some people are better at hiding their evil ways.
I hate saying these words because I feel angry just thinking about it. I try to push these feelings down.
What do you want to say to someone?
Excerpt From: Scott Green. “397 Journal Writing Prompts & Ideas.” Apple Books.