Day 25: “Y is for “You”. Write about how you define yourself.”
I am ocean.
That is what I tell people all the time. I don’t know how to describe myself. I don’t feel as though I know myself that well. I am full of contradictions. I love hard, yet I am a robot. I cannot love.
I have often compared myself to a robot. I am programmed by people to feel as they want me to feel, but from time to time I break free and feel human emotions. That is when people become angry at me. They want to put me in their little robot’s box and not deal with me. I have never met anyone that loved without conditions. There are always conditions, even unspoken ones. I am supposed to know what those conditions are as if we all have the same history and I am expected to live according to ancient laws that I have no clue about.
I am whoever you want me to be, but the offer is limited. I cannot stand anymore abuse. I cannot stand anymore friends who love me, then desert me when someone better comes along. I cannot spend any more nights with tears on my pillow.
Who are you?
Excerpt From: Scott Green. “397 Journal Writing Prompts & Ideas.” Apple Books.