Breakup Song

Day 63: “Think about your last breakup. What song do you think should have been playing at that moment?”

I have never really had a breakup. I haven’t really dated anyone in the long term tradition sense of dating. I have mostly been alone all my life. I tried a few times, but only because the other person wanted to more than I did. I did what others wanted. As I got older, I started realising that I was not meant for love.

I was like the person who throws the spaghetti to the ceiling to see if it is ready. All my spaghetti fell on my face and broke my heart. Nothing ever stuck. I hope I got that analogy correct. I am not the best at expressions.

I will turn the script a bit and speak of my best friend in Hungary. If I had known he was going to ghost me when we parted ways in Budapest, then I would have been listening to Arcadia’s “Goodbye Is Forever”. It is forever. I am living in forever still and it is a depressingly sad place.

Sometimes it makes no sense
This side of cruel coincidence
Caught up in our own barbed wire
To set us free
Believe this

Hey, goodbye
Goodbye is forever
Hey, forever
Goodbye is
Forever and ever

Other songs to consider are twenty one pilots cry for help song “Goner”, “Split Screen Sadness” by John Mayer, and Green Day’s “Wake Me Up When September Ends.” It was hard to choose between “Goner” and “Goodbye is Forever.”

But I think the saddest breakup song of all time is George Michael singing “I Can’t Make You Love Me.” I will cry every time I listen to it. The pain in his voice kills me.

Excerpt From: Scott Green. “397 Journal Writing Prompts & Ideas.” Apple Books.