Day 7: “G is for “Grateful.” What are you grateful for right now?”
Why do I find it hard to find things to be grateful for in my life? My head is stuck in the past and that is a place of anger. I wish I could just be in the moments when they are good, but my brain does not allow it. I am often stuck in a loop, which most people cannot understand. It happens in the quietest times.
The loop is when I go back into a past trauma and I relive it over and over, but I make changes in my head to it and live out the outcome. Often, I come to the same conclusion of what actually happened. I try to change how I react to something, but I cannot change who I am.
I am grateful for a little five-year-old girl named Hope. She is the youngest child of a couple I have known almost 20 years. She treats me like a friend. She is usually happy to see me. She likes me to hangout with her. She is the sweetest person I know. She calls me baby Ocean. One time she put her hand on my hand and said, “Don’t worry baby Ocean; everything is going to be okay.” I almost started crying because I was worried about something in my head. I felt as if God had spoken through her.
I am grateful that I have a job during the pandemic, when many are becoming jobless. I am grateful that I have had the opportunity to start a food pantry for people who are in need.
I am grateful for all the people who gave to kids with cancer this past summer. I rode my bike 400 miles and raised almost $4000 for the Great Cycle Challenge. I have already signed up to do it again in 2021.
I am grateful that I have a working vehicle thanks to a friend Khanh. He literally gave me a nice car with no strings attached.
I am grateful for my landlords Jay and Pat who rented out their whole basement to me for the past 6 years. They have become friends over the years. We often hang out together with our neighbour/sister Sue and play cards or some type of game. We laugh a lot.
What are you grateful for today?
Excerpt From: Scott Green. “397 Journal Writing Prompts & Ideas.” Apple Books.